Take my life and spare theirs

"Take my life and spare theirs". I looked at to the eyes of the universe and said."Take my life, instead of theirs. I am ready to die, but they are not." I was shouting, asking, begging, demanding, and commanding. I was so sad, hurt and perplexed. Why? Why? Why? Why did these things happen to them? Why to these babies and children? I wish I can die for them. I want to die on behalf of them. I want to save them from these terrible disasters.

Although I am absolutely sure that it is impossible for most of us to fully understand the nature and its functions, I also knew very well that there must be enough legitimate reasons for whatever happens here. Nothing happens without reason. It must be because of law of Karma. (Sorry Prof Dawkins, I know you will religiously disagreed with me. I fully understand you. And I am sorry I don't have enough proofs at the moment to convince you. One day I am going to be able to prove my theory.)

Life is mysterious. Nature is sometime very brutal, unpredictable and un-understandable. There are a few historical events of which I always contemplate and try to understand whenever I feel confused and perplexed. The following is one of these events.

During one of the Burmese palace rebellion about 250 years ago, one group, very brutal and silly one while trying to take control of the throne, attempted to kill almost all possible heirs to the throne. One lady asked her executioners to allow her to see her monk as the last time before she die. She was allowed and she went to her monk and pay homage to him as the last time, solemnly, respectfully, soulfully.

"You have to pay back what you owe!" said the monk, calmly, gracefully, mercifully. How much do we owe to one another and to the nature? Not all of us can understand the way the nature works. However, it is still possible that a few of us can fully understand it. What we can see now is only a few dots of the un-seeable, un-connectable, complex matrix. It is impossible for most of us to see the whole complete picture and to comprehend each and every event of nature and lives. It is said that ignorance is the main reason for our confusion and perplexity. The cure for ignorance is to acquire right wisdom. If so, how can we get wisdom? There must be ways for it.

History has been showing us many clues, but we are still unaware of them, we are still failing to correctly interpret them. We are still misunderstanding them.

As soon as Buddha became enlightened, he claimed that "Hey, life-carpenter, I found you. I knew you tricks. You can never create me again. I am liberated from the life-circle to which you trapped us. I have just broken the chain of this trap".

Although I don't have enough proofs to justify my theory, I intuitively understand that life-carpenter is the creator of us. It must be something that others call Father or Lord or Creator. I will prove that theory one day.

I still want to die for them (babies and children and tens of thousand of innocent people), on behalf of them, in order to save them. Let me die for them. I am really ready to die. I have been carefully, meticulously, scrupulously, painstakingly and punctiliously trying not to attach anyone, nor anything.

I have nothing to attach. I have no family. I have nothing to lose. My wisdom and virtue will always go with me and will always serve, defend and save me.

Honey, don't mourn when I die.

Baby, don't cry. Don't weep. Don't be so sad.

I will be all-right even after I die. I will always be fine no matter what happens to me.

Death means just a promotion for higher life for me. It is just a noble transition to a more virtuous and enlightened life. I will return to this earth as a more wiser, kinder, richer and more powerful person and do this again and again and again.

Myo

20 March 2011, Sunday

Note: Just a short note from writing and thinking exercise. Don't take serious, guys. These writing notes are just my writing and thinking exercise. However, I will continue it, rewrite and edit it. These short writing notes will be one day corner stones to prove my theory of life :-). I felt really sad for the people (especially babies and children) unfairly affected by various natural and human-made disasters. I am always thinking about them, praying for them and wishing all the very best to them. I am really willing to die for them, if my death can save their lives and solve all different kinds of problems of our world.